have you seen my body?

I don’t know what my body looks like. 

I just don’t know. I feel like my mirror might be lying to me, but also the way I think I see myself, seems like it might be a lie.

I don’t see my body changing the way it seems when I look at pictures of myself. My clothes are tighter that they used to be. Whenever I go out I look after other. A body that looks exactly like mine. But I never do. Some are shorter, taller, have bigger breasts. All of this makes a difference. 

I just want to know what I look like. I want to see what people are seeing  when im on the bus. Do they see what I see in the mirror? Do they see what I see on the pictures? Do they see me the way my does? 

Or maybe they just don’t see me at all because I'm just another female body without a purpose or a face.

Lots of Love,

H.